Winter Afternoon

Its been almost 2 year when I had this pleasure of enjoying a chill winter afternoon sitting under a bright sunshine (which makes it not so chilly afterall) ,but as they say,its better to be late than never! So here I am,updating my almost dead Blog, transferring the sunshine directly into my post and Enlightening my technology based diary!

As I sit in the balcony, strategically making my angle in such a manner that I don't end up having sun burns but at the same time get a lot of much needed dose of Vitamin D, I observe how fast and noisy the daily chaos have gone.

Maids cleaning homes and as they move out they meet up to discuss the rising inflation (ofcourse not in the high economical terms), an old man giving his piece of wise advise to somebody on the other side of the phone he is holding which apparently is on loudspeaker (so in real, I can hear the whole conversation), some labourer working to get the much hyped LPG pipeline to our places while kids around making a fuss over don't know which issue (I doubt even they themselves are aware about the issue they are making a fuss over) because they have got this extended winter holidays. And that certainly not all,while majority of people are off to their respective workstations, some are still sorting over their household stuff scenario, as they argue over the aches and pains they are having and also the failed doctors who couldn't recommend effective medicines to them.

It just makes me feel content,as living on our own makes us miss these small little things which makes our country what it is at its basics. I might have moved out with my laptop instead of sitting in front of a desktop,must have plugged in the headphones than to add to noises around by listening to music loudly, but certainly technology couldn't change the way people react to little things in life( it might be little for me,but certainly aren't for them).

Old people still go on with their experiences of life( also when they are sure the probable listener is not listening), Kids still fight over terribly insignificant stuff, Aches and pains still top the list of old ladies who have been working like a superwoman throughout their life.

Its nice to just sit, observe and hear the real voices around than to just have silent monologue in your own head.

Happy New Year Folks!!

The Year End Ceremony!

Yet another year passes by,yet another is all set to hit our life,but between all this,the year end ceremonies vary from each soul to another!
What some think/believe/do/follow is to slip into another year with absolutely zero consciousness whereas a million and a half others think/believe/do/follow in somewhat the opposite way..

Well why talk about those billions and zillions on my personal blog and waste space,so here I am,with my personal take on the "The Year End Ceremony" thing!
With no official permission to hit the disc or get drunk and blown away with just about anybody,I am glad I never appeal for that kind of permission to be granted!
Do all those things on 1st Jan which you intend to do the whole year,is yet another myth or some kind of reality really resides in it,is still a question I try and solve each 1st Jan.But really doesn't know what answer I receive..
Making sure to be with the one's who love/care selflessly,is one of the major markers on the list of that ceremony!
Watching a nice,feel-good movie doesn't harm and with hot coffee,it absolutely doesn't.
Besides catching up on my ever so special sleep to be able to get up afresh with the new year,takes the almost important marker.
But at the same time,imaginatively having a world tour and with some help of our lovely Google,its well enough to know few more last minute things before you enter the new year..The feeling that you are bit more knowledgeable about  the world which allows to live/destroy its own self,isn't bad though..

After all wishing for love+peace+harmony never costs anything..:)

Copy-right!

"Some get there by chance,where others plan to get by choice". 

"Guess its a waste to b sane if u never experience what insanity is".

"God made earth round enough in order to make sure, none fix's a universal point and each stand's as equal as any other"!

"We hardly realize the value of a moment until it becomes a memory".

"Some limits have to be uplifted in lieu to have some fixed appropriately".

"Even a dry rose depicts beauty if seen through cheerful eyes".

"It's easy,though not a brave deed, to be silent and gulp what you intend to share than to face a reaction".

"It's not about how dusky you are.It's about how clear you are by heart! Wish to invent a fairness cream for rude/black heart people".

"Sometimes even our own smile becomes a relative term".

"Laugh it off or cry it out,sanity embeds in your head".

       "It is not a story that it should have an end.Let it be incomplete,that's its own way of being complete".

     

       "The presence of dust reminds one of the kind of end human life have had for ages.It shouldn't be that tough to comprehend life then".

        "Who could ever decipher the shape of dew,the colour of mist,the size of fragrance,the build of heartbeat".

The lost Smile

At times in our life,we get stuck in a situation,where we realise that our own smile rests with somebody else...Without any major reason,there's a block in mind,hence,the not so irritated mood but definitely pissed off tone..
On a personal level,am not that outward a person..but when I wanna go out,paint the city red,I wanna do it,irrespective of what happens...and then there's a point where somebody snatches that box of my paint and leave me all alone with the irritated state of mind..
Adding to this,in life,by experience am saying,the moment I expect something really good,or special or heartwarming should come my way,the opposite happens..Have tired to give this whole project of expectation,but then,it fails everytime just because am human and its part of human psyche to expect..
Also,there are times,when you feel that the neighbouring soul,should take a step ahead and make your senses calm...but here again,we get stuck in a vicious circle of same expectations and hence,somebody or the other gotta give up,to avoid the never ending war of words,which may erupt any time soon..!

Distract yourself...distract yourself from distractions...distract yourself from distractions to get distracted....distract yourself from distractions to get distracted but not to eventually reach the point from where you had started your distraction..!!
Lets try..!

Yet to be (at) home

Almost eight months back,I had made a choice-to move on with life and experience some kind of independence...
and hence as the most convenient and convincing option-Chandigarh was zeroed down by both,me and my parents,hence landed here...!
Every little or huge thing was new to me...had to manage my own accounts,travel alone:as per my schedule and my mood..!
OK,though I had to look after myself,myself,plus the added activities of being out of home...but between all these,exploring the city,making friends,learning all through the way,grow as a person and of course do my main business efficiently have always been on the list and somewhere,as usual,only the unplanned happened,perhaps always,if not less..!!
and here I arrived,being with 11 other girls,who somehow collectively are known to be my family,away from my family...!!
Being at home,I had never shared my room with anyone,thank god for that,but there to share with two other's was a job in itself.
frankly-one was toughest to adjust with and the other...!! oh,did I say anything about the other??!!??
guess i didn't...so now shall I...
my bed neighbour,my roomie,my shopping better half,the devilish planner and the cutest kiddo girl on the block-Kamna Gosain..
Before i get into anything else-I must tell you,that she is weird...sleeps for hours together for months..but just before the exams,she happens to sleep for like an hour per 3 days...!! hence,the university topper..!! but she is weird,isn't she??
Said that,I love her a lot...the most happening month-Feb'2011,with all kind of devil plans,the Delhi-Chandigarh trips,the voice which said-"di,mera bag pack kardo please" was a routine..!!
we shared everything,whatever is mine,is hers by default and of course the vice-verse...
(OK,we not talking about boys here..:P)




So just to pick up the slice,its simple-I love her...now that she would be moving to some other city for her master's,I wish her all the world's luck..

And as she always says to me-"aapki toh chachi bhi mere contact mein rahegi" (i don't have a chachi in real though..:D )

So that's precisely my world away from home,all the next room neighbours and the other's have been out and out fun,with some tiffs here and there,but at the end of the day,if scolded,everybody gets scolded together-majorly for no concrete reasons though,but yeah,now that the whole composition of people would change,memories would remain forever with us,irrespective of anything..!

AMEN..

The strange way

Last four years,about to be five in next five-seven days,have been on the rocks..everything done/undone had strange routes of travelling through..life on the whole being unplanned has crushed even the planned actions..giving up the deed of planning,thinking,analysing or even interpreting or assuming the most obvious..!

That's too much of giving up,but now this is also the only strange way out..

lived,died,celebrated,funeralised,thought,provoked,rethought without provocation..non did the work..or perhaps they did in exactly the opposite way in which i wanted them to do..!

But on a bigger picture,while my cheeks burn with astonishment,I feel all good things come only when we travel through strange ways..if the journey is simply from right to left,there would be nothing much left to get right about..!

So till the time am supposed to live,i would,planned or unplanned things would happen..name it destiny or luck,each day would come and each would  go by..but some would come,just to stay forever,if not in real then atleast in our memories...

so lets travel..through all possible strange ways and routes..!

Repulsion

By dictionary,repulsion means
1.The act of repulsing or the condition of being repulsed.
2.Extreme aversion.
3.in Physics.The tendency of particles or bodies of the same electric charge or magnetic polarity to separate..

And taking all of the above into critical consideration,i feel plus noticed time and again...that am one of the favourite creature's of this element,because the more i want to gain sometime,the more it gets repelled away,the more i strive hard for goals to be achieved,the tougher they get hence every effort bounces back,if not more,then at least N-number of times...
BUT....BUT...BUT...this does not,absolutely does not apply that,if i don't give inputs,the outputs are good enough..it goes like..i give huge inputs,they get repelled...i don't give inputs,no reaction,no repulsion neither acception...

It's way to hard to think too much about this..but as and when i do feel am on a correct path,at a correct pace,at the correct time..a huge,like really huge,speed breaker pops up,which forces all the power of inputs to bounce back and this very time,the repulsive act comes out to be far more higher than the input..

This kind of thing many would have heard,rest would have even experienced...just at the nick of time,blocks fall apart and thus,makes us red in anger,that even all blocks were blocked nicely but still,the game isn't over....

ponder a bit,u may pen down a few incidences...

happy reading..:)

Changing times (part1)

A small little conversation can make you see how world changed in front of your open eyes...
now this particular conversation happened like a week ago and trust me..i was shocked plus laughed out loud..!

Saw my neighbour after like 3months..and the first thing,after saying a casual hi was,"where have you been?? you live by next wall and saying hi after like ages"..! she was pretty confused,maybe about,she had almost forgotten that I actually live in exactly the next home..well,after that zapped look,she humbely said,"hi di,how are you.." I replied in a scarcastic manner,"just living,was about to die,thank god you met today"..she laughed and said "yeah,i know,same here..god saved two precious lives today,lucky day for him,haan"...I was pretty impressed by the kind she replied..expecting a 6th standard girl,to be so strong with pun's,is pretty cool..

After a small conversation over this and that,she started telling about her school..she usual does share,whenevr she meets,those little,mischevious incidents about school,class,teachers and all..and i am always so interested in listening to her..gives me a kind of nostalgia about my school days..so..and as always,she came up with this funny thing and said.."di,you know(with that non-stop laughter),these days poor teachers have to make boys and girls sit separately first and then only she can start with her days work,warna koe ni padhta.." i was wondering,there was a time,when teachers used to make a girl and a boy sit together,so that they talk less and today,the opposite is manadotary,else nobody would let her teach.."time changes",that was the only remark i made....!!

(ok,she shared more stories,but i suppose,those arnt so apt to be posted here..;))

Questions

I don't believe in believing the empty beliefs,
it takes pain and a scratch to feel bit of relief.

Why are we bounded
Why are we always surrounded,
I know I ask a bit too much,
but then does anyone tell me a little more than only "this" much..

I pray to God,
I respect to pray,
I pray to respect
and prays back to pray,even when you all are far away..

I keep questioning,
i keep wondering,
i may dream a lot,
but then without dreams can anyone live for long.

A question arises,
not only from answers,
but questions arises,
every time I question for an answer..

Happy Birthday

They call it Happy Birthday,
they sing Happy Birthday,
they wish for a happy,Happy Birthday,
but is the birthday actually a Happy Birthday..!

You are happy,
you have your birthday.
You are sad,
because its "your" birthday..

Whats special,
whats wise,
its just a day,
called as Happy BirthDay..!

You get a year older,
you get a year substracted,
still you celebrate and is well behaved,
just because its your Happy Birthday..

Confusion

Confusion is killing,
killing of some choices,
choices are weird,
weird are the situation,
situation creates confusion,
hence,confusion is killing.

Confusion is thrilling,
thrilling are the decisions,
decisions are unpredictable,
unpredictable are the situations,
thus,confusion is thrilling.

Confusion is devastating,
devastating are the lives,
lives are to be lived high,
high are the expectations,
expectations creates rude situations,
perhaps,confusion is devastating.

Confusion is killing,
Confusion is thrilling,
before it ends on a confusing note,
let me conclude,its highly devastating.

Days

Few days are just too fresh,
few are just not good enough, like an unsolved mesh.
In mid of these,
few are just too dry,like no moon no star sky.

Few days are just too rough,
few are just not good enough,and are labelled tough.
In mid of these,
few are just too smooth,like hearing a nightingale's new tune.

Few days are just too high,
few are just not good enough,to even to try.
In mid of these,
few are just too low,like early morning watching a moaning crow.

Everyday is a different day,
previous day just fails to make,the next a perfect day..!!

Crossing's

We are spoilt for choices,by choice,but a real small,almost insignificant percentage of us,at the end of the day choose the best.we rather have to end up compromising in one way or the other..
after this abstract start,you must be wondering,what am i talking about.well to bring in peace for your brain nerves,i am talking about choosing the combination of subjects,followed by choice of our careers we want to pursue in our life.
on this blue planet of ours,there is an endless list of subjects one can study from and further endless kinds of jobs one can perform.but choosing the best as per one's ability is yet another important job,which in India is performed as a team work by parents,neighbours,relatives.we in India are exposed to just fixed sets of course's to study and yet another set of career options.and one's who try and break through these sets of routine,conclude on either of the two extremes,top on the list,or at the bottom,almost tagged,wasted.
though educational system in India is under renewal process,but to achieve that sale of newness,freshness,practicality and freedom to choose and pursue as per one's ability and not as per one's mark sheet,is yet far away to reach.
strong sessions of counseling is required at the school level,so that children get to know their strong,positive and negative abilities and they can choose subjects which will enable them to reach and achieve what they actually want to.and in the next step,comprehensive open house sessions should be present to choose subjects before we enter the university.majority of children,still in this age of technology,are forced to follow set patterns of educational and career paths lay ed down by their parents or others who seem to call themselves well wishers of the child,expect the child himself.
and further this mistake is enhanced by the lack of information about the requirements of skills to pursue a course in a university.
though this is a vast,wide topic to be discussed upon,along with the presence of long chains of chain reactions,but the only sane conclusion comes out of it is,before you choose your path,grab gallons and tonnes of information,so that there's no scope of regression on your last day of last breadth.

Each for its own

Got the job?? oh haven't..??
What about the further study plan..?? hasn't worked out yet..??
I heard you were going abroad,didn't you go..??
hey,was sup..whats been happening....!!

The endless list of random questions we ask our friends,so called friends or at some random times even from those we meet for the first time...
Why is it so,that each one is so bothered about the soul next to him/her..??
Out of the pages of names who ask same sets of questions,there are hardly 2 or 3..or at the most 5-7,who are concerned actually...like real ACTUALLY..because they are your real,well wishers...for rest..its only about where are they standing "as compared to" so and so...each one wants to be at the top..each one wants to pull the other down...And mind you,those 5-7 people who are actually bothered are either not from your field of work plus are closest of all..or they are the family member's(even by force family members cannot think ill about you)

The Darwin theory of Survival Of Fittest is so very true,that it is applied at all possible fields of life..
As many other millions n zillions of things which i fail to understand,even this is something which becomes a question in itself,every time somebody asks me-so what next...!!
I always thought nobody is going to pay for my survival,I'll have to earn a living myself to live on blue planet...then why this question,by all kinds of random people..by telling them that i am not doing anything great,does it help them feel better..?? or do they feel pity for me..??
And this is the precise thing,why do you need to bother..??

Ask me how have i been..?? do i workout..?? do i play outdoor games..?? in what am i actually interested...put the question-if i weren't to worry about the money for my survival,what would i be doing then..??
Many think and some strongly believe that i love travelling...yes i do..some think,i love exploring something new,next set is confirmed about my liking towards photography...then why don't they ask things related to these..?? like what interests me in photography..?? whats there in books which make me read some genre and puke on other genre...??

God has sent us all,he is super master..he must have planned something for us..whats the need of your botheration..?? make your own efforts,do great in life..wish the same for others without that analytical view point...

for once,change the pattern of your gaining information about somebody,you'll observe,there's always more than just marks,degree's,job,salary in every body's life..and let each live for his/her own...!!

(And of course even i need to follow the same..lets see if things and life as whole changes,becomes brighter or not...)

P.S This is the first entry,which is not at all in sms text language...

Another lesson..

One more year gone by.One more date changed.One more time period of this's and that's finishes...and finally one more starts with same deeds...

vicious circle...things end,just to enable others to start..
but for me,this year..2009...was a tough one..everything was bizarre..everything was in the form of a mirror-image of what the plan was...now what do you call it,the true image or reversed image..!! strange to even tag..

Of course,as always,even this year taught its prescribed lessons..

one such lesson was-TOLERATE TO AN EXTEND...
good,interesting thing to learn..applied at some places,showed positive results...hope the thing continues..positivity is great to have around..

But the context didn't specify,when to say--it's done,that's all or that's the final call..rather they were present as back questions,proving to find answers myself..
setting the limits or the standards is bit difficult,but standing on a firm stand,is highly essential..

so now,in 2010,have to set the standards,the limits and have to evaluate--how well could i answer these complicated back questions..:)

Life as an irony

Why its strong,
why its rough,
when its called its wrong,
but still its not that tough..

Ironies of life are weird,
but life as a metaphor,
we all have to bear..

You draw a line,
you make a point.
Pointless are the discussions,
out of line are the situations..

You paint a bit,
you sketch a bit more.
But still everything is neither, black or white,
rather more of gray in all..

Why its strong,
its horrible to answer.
Why its rough,
is still bit understandable.
When its called its wrong,
its argued to extend.
But still its not that tough,
is actually an expression majority pretends.

Emotions..

Profoundly thought,
profoundly bought,
does emotions need great language,
or can we do without any strong damage…?

Everyone screams high.
Both internally and externally, is something nobody can deny.

Breaking of heart is a process.
Why you gave the permission of its breakage,
everyone fails to access.

Fulfilling of dreams,
takes ages after the first death.
Dreams of fulfillment,
makes us aged way before the final inhaled breath..

Emotions have many wings,
but still its flightless.
Emotions can be painted,
but still they are always colorless..

Profoundly thought,
Is an encouraging step.
Profoundly bought,
Brings emotions to their ultimate nest.

Unique wedding gift to my friend..:)

MR.NAMUNA…:)

What a day it was,
What a night to be treasured.
What a person he was,
What a soul to have with pleasure..

A tall structure,
With few bones.
A sweet smile,
With naughtiness always present in his eyes.

Akshat is just the name,
Happiness is actually, which got him fame..
Kapoor is the surname,
To make it prosperous is his life’s aim..

Stories to tell,
Endless to talk.
Give him your ear,
And he’ll speak more than just a lot..

Everyone loves him,
Everyone adores him.
Affection is all he has,
Care is what he always gets back..

I wish him luck and love forever,
I wish him good health and high spirits forever.
Dear god, this sweet friend of mine,
Maybe blessed forever..

What a day it is,
What a night of celebration.
What a person he is,
What a soul to have with supreme gratification..

"Ignorance is bliss"-- is it actually???

Since we were made to learn some world famous quotes,to use them in our english paragraph writings..i am aware of this one which says "SOMETIMES,IGNORANCE IS BLISS"...but nobody listed that "SOMETIMES"...

lately..have experienced that this quote works in ONLY those cases where the person for whom it is being used have enough brains to actually understand it...in other cases,its not at all a bliss..it turns into pain..
because once ignored,they re-approach...even when again and again ignored,they dont stop their re-approaching act..

i just fail to understand that, is there any kind of lack of education in these re-approaching acts or simply,there's a gap in what i was made to understand as our ethical values and they were made to understand their ethical values...
seems their diversity even in these basic values...but it is certainly sad to have this kind of diversity...

now i am totally zapped,wheather to take this quote as it says or should change it as per the situation demands...!!!

Insecurities...!!

wat a day it was...!!
whn sumthg cums,it cums in abundance...n spclly if itz abt sumthg nt so positiv...thn it carries all d more added big bags n baggages...

in past 24hourz...i cam across so many ppl who r sufferin frm dis weird feelin...called INSECURITIES...!!
itz sad 2 say,tht list strts wid my own name...:(

bt y...???? y r v so insecure????
by gods grace,every1 whom i met or talkd 2day,has been provided wid al poss luxuries 2 lead a normal,healthy lyf...
bt still thr minds r nt at peace..rather itz runnin at a high pace...!!

isnt it so strange..strtin as young as my nephew leadin 2 as older as my frndz n few family members...thy all suffer frm insecurities...!!

my nephew is insecure abt his car keys wud b taken frm him,if he doesnt eat his food..my neighbr,whoz in 7th standard is insecure wheathr she'll b abl to giv her best in her sum dumb school confrnc 2mwr or nt...my frndz r insecure f losin thr place by d entry f few mor...my family members r insecure f whthr d medicine thy take so often will actully help thm or make it worse 2 handle...!!

n abt me...m insecure abt endless thgs...bt at d same tym,wats all d mor amazin is,m guarded by so many thgs tht make me so secure tht des trivial insecurities jst vanish away...:)

i wish i cud find sum mor f positiv energy tht dis word in itslf cud b don away wid......