The strange way

Last four years,about to be five in next five-seven days,have been on the rocks..everything done/undone had strange routes of travelling through..life on the whole being unplanned has crushed even the planned actions..giving up the deed of planning,thinking,analysing or even interpreting or assuming the most obvious..!

That's too much of giving up,but now this is also the only strange way out..

lived,died,celebrated,funeralised,thought,provoked,rethought without provocation..non did the work..or perhaps they did in exactly the opposite way in which i wanted them to do..!

But on a bigger picture,while my cheeks burn with astonishment,I feel all good things come only when we travel through strange ways..if the journey is simply from right to left,there would be nothing much left to get right about..!

So till the time am supposed to live,i would,planned or unplanned things would happen..name it destiny or luck,each day would come and each would  go by..but some would come,just to stay forever,if not in real then atleast in our memories...

so lets travel..through all possible strange ways and routes..!

Repulsion

By dictionary,repulsion means
1.The act of repulsing or the condition of being repulsed.
2.Extreme aversion.
3.in Physics.The tendency of particles or bodies of the same electric charge or magnetic polarity to separate..

And taking all of the above into critical consideration,i feel plus noticed time and again...that am one of the favourite creature's of this element,because the more i want to gain sometime,the more it gets repelled away,the more i strive hard for goals to be achieved,the tougher they get hence every effort bounces back,if not more,then at least N-number of times...
BUT....BUT...BUT...this does not,absolutely does not apply that,if i don't give inputs,the outputs are good enough..it goes like..i give huge inputs,they get repelled...i don't give inputs,no reaction,no repulsion neither acception...

It's way to hard to think too much about this..but as and when i do feel am on a correct path,at a correct pace,at the correct time..a huge,like really huge,speed breaker pops up,which forces all the power of inputs to bounce back and this very time,the repulsive act comes out to be far more higher than the input..

This kind of thing many would have heard,rest would have even experienced...just at the nick of time,blocks fall apart and thus,makes us red in anger,that even all blocks were blocked nicely but still,the game isn't over....

ponder a bit,u may pen down a few incidences...

happy reading..:)

Changing times (part1)

A small little conversation can make you see how world changed in front of your open eyes...
now this particular conversation happened like a week ago and trust me..i was shocked plus laughed out loud..!

Saw my neighbour after like 3months..and the first thing,after saying a casual hi was,"where have you been?? you live by next wall and saying hi after like ages"..! she was pretty confused,maybe about,she had almost forgotten that I actually live in exactly the next home..well,after that zapped look,she humbely said,"hi di,how are you.." I replied in a scarcastic manner,"just living,was about to die,thank god you met today"..she laughed and said "yeah,i know,same here..god saved two precious lives today,lucky day for him,haan"...I was pretty impressed by the kind she replied..expecting a 6th standard girl,to be so strong with pun's,is pretty cool..

After a small conversation over this and that,she started telling about her school..she usual does share,whenevr she meets,those little,mischevious incidents about school,class,teachers and all..and i am always so interested in listening to her..gives me a kind of nostalgia about my school days..so..and as always,she came up with this funny thing and said.."di,you know(with that non-stop laughter),these days poor teachers have to make boys and girls sit separately first and then only she can start with her days work,warna koe ni padhta.." i was wondering,there was a time,when teachers used to make a girl and a boy sit together,so that they talk less and today,the opposite is manadotary,else nobody would let her teach.."time changes",that was the only remark i made....!!

(ok,she shared more stories,but i suppose,those arnt so apt to be posted here..;))

Questions

I don't believe in believing the empty beliefs,
it takes pain and a scratch to feel bit of relief.

Why are we bounded
Why are we always surrounded,
I know I ask a bit too much,
but then does anyone tell me a little more than only "this" much..

I pray to God,
I respect to pray,
I pray to respect
and prays back to pray,even when you all are far away..

I keep questioning,
i keep wondering,
i may dream a lot,
but then without dreams can anyone live for long.

A question arises,
not only from answers,
but questions arises,
every time I question for an answer..

Happy Birthday

They call it Happy Birthday,
they sing Happy Birthday,
they wish for a happy,Happy Birthday,
but is the birthday actually a Happy Birthday..!

You are happy,
you have your birthday.
You are sad,
because its "your" birthday..

Whats special,
whats wise,
its just a day,
called as Happy BirthDay..!

You get a year older,
you get a year substracted,
still you celebrate and is well behaved,
just because its your Happy Birthday..

Confusion

Confusion is killing,
killing of some choices,
choices are weird,
weird are the situation,
situation creates confusion,
hence,confusion is killing.

Confusion is thrilling,
thrilling are the decisions,
decisions are unpredictable,
unpredictable are the situations,
thus,confusion is thrilling.

Confusion is devastating,
devastating are the lives,
lives are to be lived high,
high are the expectations,
expectations creates rude situations,
perhaps,confusion is devastating.

Confusion is killing,
Confusion is thrilling,
before it ends on a confusing note,
let me conclude,its highly devastating.

Days

Few days are just too fresh,
few are just not good enough, like an unsolved mesh.
In mid of these,
few are just too dry,like no moon no star sky.

Few days are just too rough,
few are just not good enough,and are labelled tough.
In mid of these,
few are just too smooth,like hearing a nightingale's new tune.

Few days are just too high,
few are just not good enough,to even to try.
In mid of these,
few are just too low,like early morning watching a moaning crow.

Everyday is a different day,
previous day just fails to make,the next a perfect day..!!

Crossing's

We are spoilt for choices,by choice,but a real small,almost insignificant percentage of us,at the end of the day choose the best.we rather have to end up compromising in one way or the other..
after this abstract start,you must be wondering,what am i talking about.well to bring in peace for your brain nerves,i am talking about choosing the combination of subjects,followed by choice of our careers we want to pursue in our life.
on this blue planet of ours,there is an endless list of subjects one can study from and further endless kinds of jobs one can perform.but choosing the best as per one's ability is yet another important job,which in India is performed as a team work by parents,neighbours,relatives.we in India are exposed to just fixed sets of course's to study and yet another set of career options.and one's who try and break through these sets of routine,conclude on either of the two extremes,top on the list,or at the bottom,almost tagged,wasted.
though educational system in India is under renewal process,but to achieve that sale of newness,freshness,practicality and freedom to choose and pursue as per one's ability and not as per one's mark sheet,is yet far away to reach.
strong sessions of counseling is required at the school level,so that children get to know their strong,positive and negative abilities and they can choose subjects which will enable them to reach and achieve what they actually want to.and in the next step,comprehensive open house sessions should be present to choose subjects before we enter the university.majority of children,still in this age of technology,are forced to follow set patterns of educational and career paths lay ed down by their parents or others who seem to call themselves well wishers of the child,expect the child himself.
and further this mistake is enhanced by the lack of information about the requirements of skills to pursue a course in a university.
though this is a vast,wide topic to be discussed upon,along with the presence of long chains of chain reactions,but the only sane conclusion comes out of it is,before you choose your path,grab gallons and tonnes of information,so that there's no scope of regression on your last day of last breadth.

Each for its own

Got the job?? oh haven't..??
What about the further study plan..?? hasn't worked out yet..??
I heard you were going abroad,didn't you go..??
hey,was sup..whats been happening....!!

The endless list of random questions we ask our friends,so called friends or at some random times even from those we meet for the first time...
Why is it so,that each one is so bothered about the soul next to him/her..??
Out of the pages of names who ask same sets of questions,there are hardly 2 or 3..or at the most 5-7,who are concerned actually...like real ACTUALLY..because they are your real,well wishers...for rest..its only about where are they standing "as compared to" so and so...each one wants to be at the top..each one wants to pull the other down...And mind you,those 5-7 people who are actually bothered are either not from your field of work plus are closest of all..or they are the family member's(even by force family members cannot think ill about you)

The Darwin theory of Survival Of Fittest is so very true,that it is applied at all possible fields of life..
As many other millions n zillions of things which i fail to understand,even this is something which becomes a question in itself,every time somebody asks me-so what next...!!
I always thought nobody is going to pay for my survival,I'll have to earn a living myself to live on blue planet...then why this question,by all kinds of random people..by telling them that i am not doing anything great,does it help them feel better..?? or do they feel pity for me..??
And this is the precise thing,why do you need to bother..??

Ask me how have i been..?? do i workout..?? do i play outdoor games..?? in what am i actually interested...put the question-if i weren't to worry about the money for my survival,what would i be doing then..??
Many think and some strongly believe that i love travelling...yes i do..some think,i love exploring something new,next set is confirmed about my liking towards photography...then why don't they ask things related to these..?? like what interests me in photography..?? whats there in books which make me read some genre and puke on other genre...??

God has sent us all,he is super master..he must have planned something for us..whats the need of your botheration..?? make your own efforts,do great in life..wish the same for others without that analytical view point...

for once,change the pattern of your gaining information about somebody,you'll observe,there's always more than just marks,degree's,job,salary in every body's life..and let each live for his/her own...!!

(And of course even i need to follow the same..lets see if things and life as whole changes,becomes brighter or not...)

P.S This is the first entry,which is not at all in sms text language...

Another lesson..

One more year gone by.One more date changed.One more time period of this's and that's finishes...and finally one more starts with same deeds...

vicious circle...things end,just to enable others to start..
but for me,this year..2009...was a tough one..everything was bizarre..everything was in the form of a mirror-image of what the plan was...now what do you call it,the true image or reversed image..!! strange to even tag..

Of course,as always,even this year taught its prescribed lessons..

one such lesson was-TOLERATE TO AN EXTEND...
good,interesting thing to learn..applied at some places,showed positive results...hope the thing continues..positivity is great to have around..

But the context didn't specify,when to say--it's done,that's all or that's the final call..rather they were present as back questions,proving to find answers myself..
setting the limits or the standards is bit difficult,but standing on a firm stand,is highly essential..

so now,in 2010,have to set the standards,the limits and have to evaluate--how well could i answer these complicated back questions..:)