The lost Smile

At times in our life,we get stuck in a situation,where we realise that our own smile rests with somebody else...Without any major reason,there's a block in mind,hence,the not so irritated mood but definitely pissed off tone..
On a personal level,am not that outward a person..but when I wanna go out,paint the city red,I wanna do it,irrespective of what happens...and then there's a point where somebody snatches that box of my paint and leave me all alone with the irritated state of mind..
Adding to this,in life,by experience am saying,the moment I expect something really good,or special or heartwarming should come my way,the opposite happens..Have tired to give this whole project of expectation,but then,it fails everytime just because am human and its part of human psyche to expect..
Also,there are times,when you feel that the neighbouring soul,should take a step ahead and make your senses calm...but here again,we get stuck in a vicious circle of same expectations and hence,somebody or the other gotta give up,to avoid the never ending war of words,which may erupt any time soon..!

Distract yourself...distract yourself from distractions...distract yourself from distractions to get distracted....distract yourself from distractions to get distracted but not to eventually reach the point from where you had started your distraction..!!
Lets try..!

Yet to be (at) home

Almost eight months back,I had made a choice-to move on with life and experience some kind of independence...
and hence as the most convenient and convincing option-Chandigarh was zeroed down by both,me and my parents,hence landed here...!
Every little or huge thing was new to me...had to manage my own accounts,travel alone:as per my schedule and my mood..!
OK,though I had to look after myself,myself,plus the added activities of being out of home...but between all these,exploring the city,making friends,learning all through the way,grow as a person and of course do my main business efficiently have always been on the list and somewhere,as usual,only the unplanned happened,perhaps always,if not less..!!
and here I arrived,being with 11 other girls,who somehow collectively are known to be my family,away from my family...!!
Being at home,I had never shared my room with anyone,thank god for that,but there to share with two other's was a job in itself.
frankly-one was toughest to adjust with and the other...!! oh,did I say anything about the other??!!??
guess i didn't...so now shall I...
my bed neighbour,my roomie,my shopping better half,the devilish planner and the cutest kiddo girl on the block-Kamna Gosain..
Before i get into anything else-I must tell you,that she is weird...sleeps for hours together for months..but just before the exams,she happens to sleep for like an hour per 3 days...!! hence,the university topper..!! but she is weird,isn't she??
Said that,I love her a lot...the most happening month-Feb'2011,with all kind of devil plans,the Delhi-Chandigarh trips,the voice which said-"di,mera bag pack kardo please" was a routine..!!
we shared everything,whatever is mine,is hers by default and of course the vice-verse...
(OK,we not talking about boys here..:P)




So just to pick up the slice,its simple-I love her...now that she would be moving to some other city for her master's,I wish her all the world's luck..

And as she always says to me-"aapki toh chachi bhi mere contact mein rahegi" (i don't have a chachi in real though..:D )

So that's precisely my world away from home,all the next room neighbours and the other's have been out and out fun,with some tiffs here and there,but at the end of the day,if scolded,everybody gets scolded together-majorly for no concrete reasons though,but yeah,now that the whole composition of people would change,memories would remain forever with us,irrespective of anything..!

AMEN..